Pray for Change.

It's the end of 2009...where am I at?

I've realized these changes aren't going to come quickly. I went back to California for Christmas on the 12th. There was this undercurrent of anticipation. Selfishly enough, it wasn't for everyone back home. Don't get me wrong I was certainly excited to see them, but I was also eager to know how I've changed over the past few months. You ever stand in the frame of the doorway and with the tops of your hands you push real hard on the sides like you were Samson taking town the Philistines, then just when the veins start to surface on your forehead you let go, step away, and watch your arms just float up? Yeah, the homecoming wasn't like that.

It's impatience. Not the New York brand (just yet), it's still just the same old California, old Julian brand impatience. This isn't just going to take a lot more time, it's going to take a lot more effort and discipline.

So I've taken some time to re-strategize. Michael Phelps said he wouldn't be where he is today had he not put his goals in writing. I'll be doing the same for my career, with time limits. So after the hometown visit, the holiday weight gain, the snowy return, and the weekend festivities all find their end...it's time to get down to business. Oh yeah, did I mention that I'm out here to find work as an actor? More about that in the next post. Happy New Decade!

Lord, we give You glory for the work You've done this past year. We don't pray for ease and comfort in the days ahead, we pray for change, and the refining fire to purify us according to the riches of Your grace, and the wisdom of Your plan. We pray for change, for the good news of Jesus Christ to go to all people in all nations. To God be the glory, far beyond 2010.